butyea, im ok i guess. ive been living in a crawl space under the stairs in this ladys house. so thats comfy. but i get over whelemd alot and dont go out and ride my bike and make enough money. not for rent, im rent free, but like for other things, like im trying to save. i think i just lack energy becasue i cant feel love. but thats ok and probably temporary. i went to the store today and got groceries, a bunch of ramens, and monsters, and stuffs. i like this. snacks. .... ive been finding it hard recently to feel like im connecting really deeply or whatever with the people i hold dearest.(person) or anything. esspescially online. i dont want to not feel love my whole life and idk why im this broken. im just like numb, and un receptive lol. but then it comes out as me smothering the person hahahhaa becasue like idk i get afraid if i dont say it alot they wont know. ive like, been really degening out tho. idk. lik eunder the stairs to much, gooning to her feet for fucking hours..... idk.... i didnt work today, i have to make sure i have motivation tomorrow, also i didnt sleep last night i was online and just like disacociating, not even doing anything just staring at the wal awake. idk. fucking retarded. im in the other room right now, but i might go back there soon, maybe make foods idk, nigger out and stuff... i gotta get some good rest tonight and win tomorrow tho